Can I Marry?

I used not to think much when Brenda mentioned to me that her dream is to get married. At the age of 23, to any gals out there, getting married is not a dream. It's a goal! It can be achieved. Till recently I've watched a Japanese Drama Serial, "One Liter of Tears". This drama was taken off from a real life story about a 15 year-old girl diagnosed with degenerative small brain disease, from having difficulty in coordinating movements required of daily living (e.g. eating, talking, walking etc.) to finally bed-bound and totally dependent.

Brenda was different, she had Type 1 diabetes. Yet her frequent admissions to the hospitals for DKA and complications of diabetes led her to ask the same question, "Do you think I can get married someday? It will be a dream come true if I can."

The point I realized after many years, it doesn't matter if one chronic disease is more serious or more debilitating than another. Having one already encodes the intense emotion of disliking oneself. How then could one who dislike himself/ herself have trust or faith that someone else will like him/ her wholeheartedly, without reserve, without betrayal and most importantly without abandonment.

Sometimes Loving oneself is difficult for someone whose healthy, it's definitely much more difficult for someone who has chronic disease(s).